hmmm .......... feelings hurt....

From many days I am trying to sketch her...
How does she looks...how does she survive in real life.....
Does she read? And if she does than what? is she religious ..Practicing…
Does she have any tender emotions...of love and sorrow...
Does she understand what it means to love and lose......
i know she is shorter than me.... thats what he told.....
i know she is definitely different.....that’s again his words…
some one who is a shop alcoholic can definitely be not like me….
Where i had a far wider experience of life ...
she has never been out of the provisional bounds..... But then again...
What will she feel when will come to know one day that man she believes is hers....
was in love with a second woman......
Some times i want to contemplate all of this but i can not.....
i know every female has a sixth sense... But can she really smell me on him? I don’t know….
I am the third person in this marriage…..i don’t want to create a silsala out of our lives…
I hate it … But every arrow is in the same direction……
Who is cheating on whome…. Only time will decide…..