changing life

with the same nites dark , lonely , calm , quiet , fearless , bold i always feel how days n days pass i never realized how i felt teenage behind, i never even thought of being a good guy at this age, just fedup of all the bad things dat go round in a bad boy's life. in childhood i dreamt dat i ll becum a scholar of religion, it seems as if my passion of cairo university is not going to materialize ever, but i ll always think to accomplish dat , to be pious person who leeds others n clears da vision of religion among others mind is da best job in the world,
i m 21 , if i dont change nw it will too late then, i heard from elders that at the age of 25 your habits becum urlystyle n if u plan to change them its simply not done.
confusion, confusion, confusion, y i always remain upset of tiny things, is this because i take alot of responsibilities, my aim to assist everyfrnd i know sumtimes make my lyf damn bad, but at the end of day i feel i hav done sumthig productive in helping frndz at their assignments, projects, presentationz.
time management is what lack in my life, my roommate gets up aa soon as he heards azaan, takes his shaawl n goes for mosque, me on the other hand try not to leave the dreamy world, and when i review my day i see dat my roommate was cheerful,blushing and active throughout the day but me totally opposite sad, tired, lazy n not attentive wd frndz while chatting.
if so much of my life has passed n v less is left then when i will get tym to change, my frnd SUFIAN HAMEED from england told me once that if u want to bring a change in your life then bring a "sudden change" and then stick to it, first it will suck but slowly n slowly ur own life will b running smoothly, i wish i act on his advice.
the 4 year plan which i made before cuming ntu i havent even startd yet, diss made me damn upset today , it seems i cant achieve even half of that bcz there is not much in faisalabad .. bt still things hav to be done, there should b no compromise on objectives.
the history of SUB-WAY sandwich chains encouraged me to work in their style as well... bt their history is full consistency, n dat where i fail'
planning planning n planning dats all wat i hav done yet, bt when its tym for executing them i merely complete half of them, i still remember the days when i was in youger classes my dad sit behind with me late nights till i complete my exam preparation, now y shuldnt i make dat routine again imagine ubaid ur dad is still with you sitting n want to see u sleep not before u complete your task....buddy just think abt it....
i forgot the stanze i learnt in childhood,it was sumwhat like dis :

LIVES OF GREAT MEN ALL REMIND US
WE CAN MAKE OUR LIVES SUBLIME
AND, DEPARTING, LEAVE BEHIND US,
FOOTPRINTS ON THE SAND OF TIME

this one is motivating

BRAVEMEN WHO WORK WHILE OTHERS SLEEP
THEY BUILD NATION'S PILLARS DEEP.....